great mistake...
great misunderstanding...
cindy said b4 that it's nv nice to break up over the phone..
face to face would be more sincere..
ours, over sms...
indeed wrong tool used to break up...
juz a few smses... and... haiz...
im gona to tell my side of story...
prob it may seem that im trying to protect some1 or even myslf...
but im juz gona sae...
prob this started ever since i talk to my online frien..
noeing myself, im flirt...
i was afraid that i would hurt piggy like his ex...
so i kept telling him that my feelings may change...
i really thot it would...
till the ice-skating dae..
i told myself to treat him as gd frien...
juz lik hw he treat me...
i really managed to do it...
that's y i kept reassuring piggy that there is nothing...
yes i have to admit that he some1 nice to be wif..
but when im out with him..
i juz feel like frienz...
den came todae...
both of us regained our singlehood...
and after reading ur blog...
i realised hw bad this has becum...
1) the one abt not wanting to go to sakura...
i was really sad that dae...
lik i hav told u,
jaz has not been very happy wif me...
of cos i will feel disturb esp when i duno wat i do to make her so sad..
i really dun feel hungry though i only add a bread 4 recess and lunch...
even till yest.. my appetite wasnt back 4 lunch...
i really din hear my sms cum..
until when i reach white sands in evan's car...
2)asking ming yi to evan's hse...
he was saeing tht he was very bored...
wanted to lik accompany him..
later it juz revolved to asking him to evan's hse...
i cant really rem,
but i guess prob it was also half of evan's idea...
3) yest nite..
rem i told u not to worry..
cos i'll be toking to him..
i din noe what to do when u called me..
i noe u won't be happy..
bt we were in the midst of a conversation...
but by the end of it which was about a while later...
i was already starting to tok rubbish already...
tt's y i din call u...
doze off when i hung up the fone...
im sorrie 4 that...
4)todae...
u saed u were bu shuang about the not calling u back matter...
i apologised..
u nv reply...
i called...
u still sounded unhappy...
when u sms about u being stuck at the middle of the highway,
i din reply immediately cos i was slping...
when i read it...
i din noe u mean by u cycled..
i tot u were still unhappy..
and u meant something like we will forever be in diff world...
no matter hw much effort u put in u will nv be able to reach my world (punggol)...
that's y i sae wat do u wan to do now...
wat i meant was wat u wan to do wif our relationship...
when u saed u were home..
i was wondering whether is it u really was on the way to punggol or u hav decided to giv up that's y u sae u r home..
tt's y i ask u that..
which make u so bu shuang...
when u saed nvm...
i was still wondering...
that's y i ask whethr u wana to giv up...
u saed u were tired...
i tot it was over the relationship..
first time...
of cos i have to admit that i dun do a gd job beocs it was u that was giving in all the way...
when i sae u can try other means to get here (tt's when i suspect that u did try to cum to punggol)...
i meant prob we can meet up or what...
or tmr i can go down...
dun wan bully u...
when i still blur...
u ask me about ming yi...
so everything juz really made me think that u were affected by him...
of cos i din keep u when u ask if u shd continue...
since when did i call u 2 wait?
nw that u sae u r tired...
would i bear to hold u?
i was afraid that our luv may becum hatred, if ever i changed to lik some1 etc...
that's y ask u to giv up...
that's my part of story...
i really duno y it turn out tis way...
prob it's God's will...
enjoy ur singlehood...
promise nv to let those tears flow 4 too long...
*muackZz*
